so lets see.
last i left off....
hmmm.....
well so far the summer has been alright.
hanging out with friends all the time..
but sadly i have to start my summer school soon enough...
i have my party coming up and usually you would be excited for that....
well im not....
i dont exactly know why but i dont think im ready to turn 16 just yet...
there's just to much responsibility...
my mom's going to make me drive my little sister everywhere....
i dont know...
driving will probably be nice...
but im just not excited yet.....
im 3 days away from officially being 16....
i'm just worried alot lately...
everyone seems to be just so depressed...
and i feel like i should help them...
but i dont know how....
i decided to call up my therapist again...
i got back to having my suicidal thoughts...
i meet with her tomorrow....
im not very excited....
i've been thinking alot lately about rolling again....
it's almost gotten to that point...
i'm getting money for my birthday to...
so thats not going to help...
i think i might just buy it because its getting that bad again...
and honestly they do help as an anti depressant....
and i kinda need that....
i wish i could help peter...
i'm worried about him lately....
this distance thing seems a little hard on him....
and i dont blame him....
it's hard on me too....
but i have people to help out....
like friends...
but from what it seems he doesnt have much to do out there....
i dont know...
sometimes i just worry to much....
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