Why is the best stuff Illegal?

Its not that i do them anymore.

but its not like i forget all the good times and happy feelings i've had while partaking in them.

im not saying that you should go out and try them sometime but im also not saying they are completely bad for you.

for me i used mine whenever i felt depressed,

i still do when things get to that level, which isn't very often anymore.

i've made and lost friends while having a good trip,

made a lifetime friend,

while i lost my best friend.

it just goes to show who will really stick around,

even if what your doing hurts yourself and others around you, if you do decide to go down the path of drugs keep in mind you will lose friends and you may get addicted. i know i did. addicted to the feeling, the memories... the only downfall is the comedown, the snap back into reality. when you realize you've lost more than you have gained.... after a while of pill popping and not really wanting to stop i've come to realize i was obsessed with the next high i would get the next amazing day out with a friend. i dont need drugs to make my life better i need the mind set. sometimes its difficult to be able to change from one person to the next. one dream i wish i would be able to fulfill would be to take it while i was fighting with someone i love and for them to take it with me because when your on this drug you truely are completely open with people. and i think that if you could be that open with someone there would be a hell of a lot less fights, divorces, or ends to friendships. but the only thing that would even allow me to do this again was if me and my husband were fighting and i truely knew we were in love. i dont need this to mess up my life again. i like where its at right now. in love with the most amazing boy i have ever met, with friends that i would never have imagined meeting and having the privilege to be called my friends. i wouldn't be anywhere without my "family" when you know someone to the point of sister/brotherhood it changes something inside you and you instantly call them family, and believe me its not worth losing.