....hmmm....

lately things have been... rough..
i've been doing all sorts of drugs..
it got to the point on friday where..
i had taken two Valium.. i figured..
if i take a couple of other pills that maybe i could end it..
i opted out of it.. but now.. looking back.. i should have done it..
all i am is a worthless, stupid, bipolar, retarded, fucked up, piece of shit girl..
i hope to god that one day..
i'll just fucking die already..
i'm so sick of waiting, and waiting..
i just want this stupid leukemia to take over already..
i want to die.. i want to die.. i want to die..
take a bullet to my head and pull the trigger,
cut so deep i bleed red poison,
pop them pills till i'm to numb to feel,
anything...
anything..
anything.
just get me out of this body..
it's starting to become a prison cell..
everything has fallen apart and come crashing down on me..
god please just kill me now..
please..
just end this suffering..
please..
fuck my life..
i'll finish myself off..
i cant fake it anymore..
goodbye you cruel, cruel world..
i'm fucking done..