i wonder..

i wonder if they notice..
how much it hurts..
it's been so cold all these days..
i've been abandoned..
dont give up on me now..
my whole life..
i've been caught on the dark side..
for so many years..
just a couple of lyrics from allred's song
your hand in mine..
his music is speaking to me more than ever..
Dallen has started ignoring me..
not that i should care.. but i do?
eh fuck it all..
i guess it's me and bryanda..
and davis?
he seems like a cool kid..
he came to the party last night..
which was super good..
he's a really nice guy..
i enjoyed getting to know him at least a little..
god allred..
why do i just want to have sex with your music?
litterally?
god.. i've gotten to the point where i cant think anymore..
but rolling..
i need it..
it's become an addiction..
every time i roll i lose weight..
and i want to lose it all..
i've learned how to let go..
of everyone i know..
and that has left me out here..
all alone..
more lyrics from John's song
Hurry up..
i just spent 9 bucks on his music..
and another 10 in a week or so?
for his show in Provo..
god his voice is an ear-gasm :)
haha i cant wait to see him!!
well goodnight..
also.. :)
White Butterflies.. Double Stack!!